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Since I first learned how to read and write, I’ve developed an interest, and sooner a passion for the arts of literature. However, I never truly realized the impact it brought into my life until now. In this season of pain and insecurity, writing has evolved into a steadfast symbol of my core.
On the threshold of the pandemic, I’ve continually broken and restored the relationship I have with myself. Like the rest of the people, my faith and mental health have been gravely tested. Amidst the horrors, prayer helped me realize the valuable things in life, including the dreams that wait for me from the future.
When quarantine started, I began thinking about redirecting my life to something else. I pondered on the degree program I enrolled myself in before (BS Accountancy) and finally admitted to myself and my parents that I could never see myself working as a CPA anytime in the future. So I shifted, and I couldn’t be any happier. Without this decision, I wouldn’t have been able to write my very first novel and talk to strangers in my blog.
So, what urged me to write a novel? I’m a bit embarrassed to say this but it was my first time watching Gossip Girls in May and after watching the series, I felt inspired since then. So to make the long story short, I utilized my time starting my very first fiction novel by publishing it on Wattpad. Every day I worked on my book, interacted with a bunch of other amateur and experienced writers from around the world, and grew more respect for all of them.
My writing journey has saved me from drowning in my thoughts. During a time when I felt weak and hopeless, writing and finishing Wonderfully So has given me the will to wake up every day, improve my craft, and commit fully to my dream.
A little something about me:
I’m a 20-year-old college student studying at the University of San Jose – Recoletos from the Philippines. And just this year, I’ve finally mustered up my courage (after how many days of introspection and watching self-care & motivation videos) to make my childhood dream a reality — to be a traditionally published author.
Well, sort of.
Currently, I’m still on the lookout for editors to help me edit my YA novel before I submit it to Anvil Publishing Inc. It’s called Wonderfully So. I’ve published all my zero drafts in Wattpad (as a first-timer) gradually from May to October 2020.
I’m going to be frank and tell you that I went through a difficult phase in most of my journey. There were times when I felt like giving up because no one seemed to be reading it. It was hard to motivate myself every time I get stuck writing a scene in the middle of a chapter. I thought I was just wasting my time putting my own story out into the world with millions of competition alongside. I thought it was all for nothing.
Nevertheless, I came through.
I remembered the reasons why I started writing the first chapter. I remembered the late nights when I would get myself out of bed when inspiration kicked in. I remembered the days I spent disciplining myself to finish a chapter instead of hanging out with my friends because I believed I was brave enough to conquer times like these.
It was fulfilling. The painstaking journey was worth it.
It’s a brand new beginning for me. Now, it’s your turn.
How can my experience help you achieve your dream?
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3 THINGS TO LEARN FROM MY EXPERIENCE AS A NOVICE WRITER:
LEARN TO WORK IN SILENCE.
It’s perfectly normal to want to tell the whole world about your dream and your excitement to make it happen. It’s okay to tell people about your experiences and the hardships you had to overcome to reach this point. But always remember to work hard for yourself and not for the satisfaction of other people’s expectations. You must train yourself not to allow your self-esteem to be fully dependent on others. You don’t need to always show off you people to constantly praise you for your hard work.
You can still do your absolute best even without them. Why? Because you’re doing this with our without their input. You love what you’re doing and you don’t need their opinion to validate your commitment. Don’t harness your confidence solely from the things you wanna hear from other people just to feed your ego.
Be confident even when you’re the only one who thinks so. You owe that to yourself. Whether there are people who support you or not, the most important voice you need to listen to is your own. Sometimes it feels greater to shock everyone after they insult you behind your back for fulfilling your aspirations.
GROWTH REQUIRES COURAGE.
It takes more than perseverance to achieve your dream. Along the way, you’re gonna have to accept the challenges required of you even if you don’t want to, even if you’re not prepared for it. You can’t nit-pick specific processes; you have to be firm and push through to every single one in the whole process. You need to strengthen your faith. Improve your mindset. You can surpass whatever it is you put your mind into.
If you believe that you can achieve something, you will. If you don’t, then you’re just killing the dream that’s waiting for you to make it alive. Having to be at the receiving end of those insults is hard. But if you give up on your dream because you allowed its power to bring you down, it just means you’re not strong enough to fight for it yet. Sometimes it’s okay to take a break and sometimes it’s not.
The world isn’t going to shrink itself to your size. It stays the way it is. You, however, have the power to make the impossible possible, and that starts with accepting that growth exists not in joyous moments but hardships. While you’re being a coward to people’s sharp tongues, someone else is taking those insults as an advantage. That someone is leaping above the hate and negativity straight to the top.
YOUR DREAMS ARE WAITING FOR YOU TO WAKE UP.
If you spend most of your time wishing you could live the lives of other people on the internet, this is a sign to click out of that video and think about the amazing life you’re gonna live if you start doing it yourself. All those nights talking to yourself in front of the mirror or lying down in bed as your tears trickle down your face mean that you indeed desire the best life you could ever imagine. Deep inside your heart, you wanna be that type of person inside your daydreams in an instant, but you know that’s never gonna happen.
Always put in mind that success comes for you when you’re ready for it. You attract it to come to you, so be attractive in the best way you can. I watch a lot of Youtube videos myself. I get inspired by their stories, especially when I’m one of the people who witness the beginning of their journey, and seeing them conquering every challenge just makes me wish I’m as strong as they are. But then I got tired of simply watching Youtube videos to keep me momentarily motivated.
I got tired of the feeling of jealousy and insecurity. I got tired of fooling myself by not working on my own success stories. I got tired of wasting my time. You should be too. It’s not enough to merely have dreams, you have to be willing to turn them into something more. One day, you’re gonna sit around the dining table telling your own stories to your grandchildren on Christmas Eve, and they’re going to grow up inspired by you. That’s the best gift you could ever give them.
“Everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.”Silvia Plath