Do you remember what it was like to feel jealous for the first time when your friends got recognition over you for doing the same thing? The rush of guilt suddenly rises in your chest as you think, “Why am I acting jealous to my friends? Aren’t I supposed to be happy for them?” Then you start thinking about your insecurities, and one of them is what a terrible friend you are. Well, if that feeling of envy is what makes you think you’re an awful friend, don’t beat up yourself too much.
We all meet people for a reason. Whether they’re a blessing or a curse depends on how quickly we realize their true intention or how gravely their impact on our lives. No matter how many times we avoid being in any way affiliated with people whom we know are not good for us, life will interfere and ruin all our efforts. There will always be a reason why you had to meet an asshole and probably be really good friends with him or why you had to lose the only best friend you had after graduating high school.
If you’re planning to write your book and push through with it, you’re subjecting yourself to vulnerability against forces beyond your control. Contrary to popular belief, writing a book is not easy. It isn’t some side hustle that you can opt to do on your free time and guarantee a best-selling book. Frustrated, you’re going to suffer late nights squeezing your head about organizing your plot or finishing a chapter you took so long to conceptualize. You’re going to encounter several dilemmas and suffer an existential crisis more usually now. You’re going to face the ceiling convincing yourself how this is all a bad idea and you should just give up.