When life goes south, the circumstances force us to feel helpless and weak. All we see is a never-ending phase of darkness. During these times, we lose confidence in our abilities because we blame ourselves for being in a situation that’s out of our control. It feels like we’re running an endless marathon with the whole world on our shoulders. We stand and watch our future slowly burning before us, and we have no choice but to hope all our problems would disappear. This may seem like the worst nightmare that comes only once for most of us. But for some people, this is real life. This nightmare plays day-in and night, without any hint of stopping.
We all have those days when we feel like nothing when we get too good at telling ourselves we’re never going to be good enough. The feeling of worthlessness doesn’t come instantly; it’s rather an accumulation of negative feelings that come usually during a bad day and sumps up when we’ve reached the limit of what we can tolerate in our self-esteem. This feeling is very common in your twenties and it hits you where you least expect it. There will come a day when everyone around you got everything they wanted, and their happiness just causes you pain, and you hate yourself for it.
One way or another, that feeling of being unworthy of everything is bound to happen, and there’s no way you can prepare for it. Strangely, some people experienced getting that feeling when they’re only a few steps away from achieving their goal and unfortunately, gave up. It’s so powerful, most are willing to throw away years of grinding and hustling to that voice of deceit.
Change your nasty attitude because it’s the only way to live a better life for yourself. If you continue to live a life with a horrible personality, no one will ever want to get to know you. When you get older, no one will come to visit you when you’re sick. No one will give you food when you run out. No one will be there for you when you’re dead. What you give to others will eventually come back to you.
Along the way, you’re going to commit many, many mistakes. Small or gigantic, you’re going to learn something from that horrible experience once you accept that you were meant to be in that place. You begin to hear what God is trying to tell you once you surrender every burden to Him. You begin to see things more clearly and to breathe more calmly once you understand that you are not just a small part of this gigantic world.
Entering a relationship is your choice and it should still be yours if you leave. Your fate should not suffer because other people think leaving him is the wrong decision to make. If the breaking up is mutual, think about what’s best for both of you, but if it’s not, prioritize your well-being first. Don’t ever let someone pressure you into doing something so personal and sensitive. An outsider’s opinion on your relationship is irrelevant and insignificant simply because he is not the one who committed nor is he a part of the highs and lows; therefore, he has no right to speculate.